Hey, so I’ll be your new annoying-ish friend who challenges you to prism-colored patchouli-smelling positive-vibrational “challenges”! How about it?
I want to list 10 things going well.
You know why? Because some of you that read this blog had no idea that I was so close to my brother. Heck, some of you reading this blog didn’t even know I have a brother*. I didn’t talk about him often. I didn’t have to. He was always there for me, like the sun, stars and sky. I didn’t need to write about my relationship with him, didn’t have any problems to hash out. There wasn’t any angst. Only a lot of joy.
In the spirit of that, I want to flesh out the things that ARE AWESOME.
- My relationship with Mikey. It is good. It’s really good. I’m super grateful to him for his steady love, support and compassion. He’s finally giving me flowers!
- The cats. I want a certified service cat, yo. I’m nuts about our 4 cats, and invariably, as long as one is sleeping with me, I’m okay at night. I’ll wake up and be sad and if a cat isn’t around, I’ll stay up all night, wrapped in my head. With a cat nearby though, I pet the cat and calm all the way down.
- The kids. I love that we have a good relationship going, that we understand one another so well.
- My community here on the Lost Coast. This place is incredible. They’ve given us so much space in this horrific time, along with the feeling that if I need to fall, they will catch me. My back feels secure.
- My hill. I can hike so long and so far up here, it’s rad. The mist in the morning, the clouds, fresh crisp air. The leaves blowing all over the place. Sunlight.
- My friends. I have some pretty stellar people in my life – you reading are probably one of them – and boy am I ever grateful.
- My mom. Now, this one deserves a blog post all in and of itself. But my mom is amazing, our relationship is growing in positive ways, and I feel closer to her than I ever have.
- My grandma. Yes, my grandma died in March. But I feel her so easily and clearly. She’s helping me a lot in this, and I lean on her and feel her lovely tinkling, happy voice and laughter all the time.
- The trust level out here. You know, people here leave their keys in their car, often with their wallets? The gas station works on the trust system – you give them cash and they trust that you’ll stop the nozzle when you’ve reached the amount you paid for. We can’t get FedEx or UPS packages delivered to our yurt – a common problem out here – so we, along with others, are allowed to use the general store’s address for those types of deliveries. I’ve been here for a while now and I never, ever get tired of this. It never ceases to amaze and delight me.
- My nieces and nephews. Bright, beautiful snug-ums.
That’s my 10. Your turn!
*I refuse to say “had”. I have a brother. He is no longer in physical form. I have a brother still. The end.