Micah has been having a really hard time with school. Oh, not the academics (never the academics), but with pretty much everything else.
If you have ever had a situation in which your kid is struggling to fit in, you know exactly how heartbreaking that can be. If you’ve ever seen something like your kid chasing after other kids because they won’t play with him, you know that particular brand of pain, don’t you. It’s like no other.
Things reached a tipping point at the end of the year, and Micah’s voice, always kind of raspy, simply went away.
I thought he might have a cold or something, but I was suspicious because it was weird to me that his voice was gone when there so much hurt happening with him. It was weird to me that he lost his method of communication right as he was told by some kids that they didn’t want to communicate with him.
We left and some time passed and his voice came back, but I noticed that in any situation in which he was scared or nervous or his mojo was gone – so was his voice.
It just left.
I signed Micah up for a week-long day camp in town and had him interact with other kids there. He had a blast. He made friends. His voice was back.
I am leaning strongly on homeschooling Micah next year.
For one, if he goes back to school, he’s going to be with the same teacher in the same class with the same dynamics. I simply don’t think he should go through that again. There are some things you want to struggle and persevere in life for, but I don’t think pushing through a situation like this with a kid as sensitive (and young) as Micah is one of them. I don’t think you should push through that when there are sure alternatives that will give him friends, a solid education and creative freedom.
This is what my gut says, but it’s hard to not out-guess myself.