Excuse Me One Moment (While I Pay Attention to My Kids & Figure Out My Site)

This is how it goes:

I wake up at 4 something in the morning to figure out wp framework. Mack wakes up with my waking up, he wants to nurse. So that happens. Then – around an hour later? – I can finally slip out, make a cup of coffee and figure out things that confuse me. I usually write a blog post while I am trying to figure things out. I get sidetracked on social media. I edit some photos. I sort of tinker around a bit more with that plugin or the other one and – oh! Mack’s up again! Moxie too!

This is invariably right when I’m in deep with a twisted knot of something – so I spend the next hour sort of doing a half-assed job with everything. With the problem, with an online conversation, with my kids. It’s all done with a fraction of my brain, and my brain is already operating with injury, so I end up constantly feeling fried, scattered, divided. And I end up feeling guilty that I’m not paying wonderful attention to my 3 little love-drops (two of whom are plunked in front of Dora as I type this, the other is sleeping on my lap).

It feels exactly like that saying: when you put the small stones into a jar first, then try and fit the large ones in, they won’t fit.

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And when you put the large stones in first, adding the small stones after, they will.

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I’ve got a lot of large stones right now – these ones

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– which are huge, solid and joyful, to be sure.

The other stones in the jar are the things that I try and figure out at 5 in the morning and kind of end up wanting to sacrifice small animals over (- that’s totally just a joke, okay?) (probably a bad one, but that’s what happens when you try and figure out plugin-shumugins-head/width/px-whatever nonsense for too long – bad jokes happen).

But this stuff needs doing.

So I’m going to take a break from this blog and a break from social media (- and of course, by “social media” I mean “facebook”).

Try and focus on the big things.

xoxox

meriah

 

Meriah

is a deaf blogger, global nomad, tech-junkie, cat-lover, Trekkie, Celto-Teutonic-peasant-handed mom of 3 (one with Down syndrome and one gifted 2E).

She likes her coffee black and hot.


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