Soul Juice

The original title of this post was “If You Don’t Get Depressed, Don’t Read This Post” because I was depressed when I first wrote it and felt like it should be from me – who suffers from depression – to you, who know what it’s about (because you know, you wouldn’t be reading it if you didn’t get depressed!)

But I’ve changed it because it’s really more about music and a song that makes me happy.

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When I was a kid, I was taught that music is a ladder for the soul.

That through music, we can become close to the Source of all Love (want to say “God”? that’s fine too – whatever. The name isn’t important; it’s the Presence that is).

That music can connect me with the Divine, well, that’s been easy for me to believe.

For some songs, I can almost see the notes in my mind’s eye and feel that I can lose myself at a cellular level within the sounds therein. The notes can take me places available only in spirit, make that phrase of the “unbearable lightness of being” ring true.

Music can shine a sure light through the depressive caverns I find myself in from time to time, can lead me out.

There are so many songs that  make it brighter. One song in particular though feels like it was made for me.

It’s called “Just Look Up”. I heard it when the gods of the i-pod chose it at random shortly after I had received the results of my amnio and knew we’d be expecting Moxie with a Little Extra.

To say at that time I was “depressed” is such an understatement it’s not even funny.

I was “depressed” like an ant is “small” compared to an elephant.

Anyway. There I was one day, driving to work, choking  in my grief and this song came on. I had to pull over. I think I shook because I was crying so hard, you know, the howling kind that’s extra fluidic.

I just wanted to share it here because maybe you haven’t heard it, maybe it might help you. Maybe if you have a song that helps, you can share it in the comments? I love new adds for my “soul juice” playlist.

So here it is.
(just click on the link below – it’ll open a quicktime player and play)
12 – Just Look Up

…and here are the lyrics:

Every life must have its sorrows and its pain
Yes it will
Where there’s sunlight there are shadows and sometimes rain
When you’re down and can’t get up
Lay both hands on a lovin’ cup
Make each teardrop like a diamond
Just look up

Just look up when storm clouds block the sun
(Just look up)
Just look up when there’s nowhere left to run
(Nowhere to run)
Remember how the trees must bend
And the mighty rivers went
There’s a rainbow waiting for you
Just look up

For each promise of forever
There’ll be times, yes there will
When you crawl ’til you swear you’ve had your fill
Keep your heart right on your sleeve
Stand your ground when you want to leave
There’s a love that’ll last forever
Just look up

Just look up when storm clouds block the sun
(Just look up)
Just look up when there’s nowhere left to run
(Got nowhere to run)
Remember how the trees must bend
And the mighty rivers went
There’s a rainbow waiting for you
Just look up
(Just look up)

When you ‘ve lost that light that guides you from despair
(From despair)
And the memories of dear ones fade with earthly cares
Know the spirits burnin’ bright
Throughout all you’re darkest nights
Make your life a testimony
Just Look Up

Just look up when storm clouds block the sun
(Just look up)
Just look up when there’s nowhere left to run
(Nowhere to run)
Remember how the trees must bend
And the mighty rivers went
There’s a rainbow waiting for you
Just look up
(Just look up)

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It’s on this album:

PS

“there’s a rainbow waiting for you” – is why we called Moxie “rainbow” in utero. And one of her middle names is “Enfys” which is Welsh for “rainbow” (- I”m part Welsh)

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Meriah
is a deaf blogger, global nomad, tech-junkie, cat-lover, Trekkie, Celto-Teutonic-peasant-handed mom of 3 (one with Down syndrome and one gifted 2E).
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4 Comments

  • I’m glad music works for you – however, it does not work for a majority of Deaf people. What works for me are pictures and conversations. I have favorite pictures I take a look at when I need to and I have people I call up on VP or I go over to talk with – I personally think that’s better than music… just my opinion. 🙂

  • Beautiful song. I can just put on my headphones and hit the replay button all day.
    I don’t know about mixing music and religion, but this song does indeed soothe your soul when you’re feeling down.
    Thanks for sharing this with us Meriah.

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