Moxie's Surgery

Okay so you guys made me cry on Facebook. Instagram, too. The enormous outpouring of love and support you sent our way when Moxie was going in to surgery felt like the warmest, sweetest blanket ever – and I thank you for it.

It meant so much.

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Moxie’s surgery was for bi-lateral strabismus. Basically, what was happening was her eye muscles were turning her eyes in. She couldn’t see straight and it was affecting her depth perception, among other things. Since it was only getting worse, there was also the concern that she would lose her sight.

The surgery was outpatient, meaning she went in very early in the morning, they operated on her and then after an hour or so of recovering from her sedation, she was sent home.

As far as surgeries go, it was one of the easiest, simplest ones out there and yet oh my God were Mikey and I ever a mess!

I was on the edge of a massive hysterical crying blowout the entire time, sort of letting it loose like a pressure cooker valve does it’s steam by a slow, constant stream of tears coming out of the side of my eyes. Mikey had some inexplicable “eye problems” and the two of us spent the hours in the hospital trying to re-convince ourselves we were doing the right thing… and feeling incredibly appreciative for the love and support we felt from family and all of you friends.

And also grateful that this isn’t something we need to go through on a regular basis. Or even that the surgery was nowhere near what a heart surgery is, or some of the other grave ones that I know so many others go through with their little ones.

I really… you know…….., I just don’t know how you all do it. I suppose you have to do it so you find it within yourselves to move forward, but oh man….

I’m finding myself returning to that hysterical tear-full space, so let’s move on before I start bawling over here.

Moxie was a trooper. It feels weird and wrong somehow to say that when she didn’t know what was coming. But still, she was in good spirits throughout and as relaxed as I’ve ever seen her about things that she normally doesn’t like one bit.

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She did really like the “happy juice” (and yes – they really call it “happy juice”!!) – Mikey said, “hey Moxie, do you like that happy juice?” and she was all, “yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

right after she said her "yeeeeeeeaaaaaah"
right after she said her “yeeeeeeeaaaaaah”

Haha.

But there comes that point when you see your little one, that precious person of your heart, so out of it and even if you really think you are doing the right thing, you cry.

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And pray.

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Then wait.

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Then finally – FINALLY! – they called and we got to go up and see our Peach who just waking up

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Words…. they just can’t express that moment so I won’t even try.

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Moxie’s team said her surgery went “really well”. Her eyes have stitches on them – on the eyeballs – which will be absorbed by her body in time. They are keeping a watch on her healing.

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But already she has come from so tired, so drugged and out of it

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To changing Dora’s diaper and playing with her trains.

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She had her first post-op exam and her doctor said it looks wonderful, her eyes are much straighter, they are lining up.

We’ll keep the prayers and good energy up and aimed at her swift and thorough healing –

THANK YOU for loving her so much.

I’m getting all teary again. I’m no good at this stuff.

xoxo

 

Meriah

is a deaf blogger, global nomad, tech-junkie, cat-lover, Trekkie, Celto-Teutonic-peasant-handed mom of 3 (one with Down syndrome and one gifted 2E).

She likes her coffee black and hot.


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13 Comments

  • Hugs! There is no such thing as a minor surgery when it’s your child! Ryan had minor tongue surgery about 4 months before Lauren’s OHS. I cried for both of them. Glad Moxie’s surgery went well 🙂

  • Hi Meriah,

    It is such a helpless feeling as a parent when your child has surgery – Bláthnaid had hernia surgery when she was younger – a 1 hour operation stretched out for over 2 hours – an eternity in my head! It’s great news that Moxie is on the mend 🙂

    Lorna x

  • Oh, I missed the actual surgery day (offline for a few days) but had been thinking of you guys. So happy to hear that it went well. And not at all surprising to hear of all the crazy and tumultuous emotions you had. That is just the way it goes. It doesn’t matter how big or small the procedure is, handing off your child is the hardest thing. Seeing her sweet little body in those hospital gowns is hard. It’s hard when you have a choice too, since you know you could keep them from it. I have totally felt that way, having had a choice for one of Cora’s surgeries and not having a choice for the other. But it is never easy. So happy that the results look good. Yay!

  • Meriah, I do not comment to often, but I never miss a post. I have adored Moxie since I first found your blog. I show everyone I know Moxie’s pictures, she is the most adorable little girl! The picture of her in the wagon made me cry. She is so precious, and your such wonderful momma! Thanks for sharing her with our family, Maddie loves looking at her pictures!

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